The last time you were in my room You spent hours on my bed on the phone with someone else And I told you that I wasn’t jealous at all but I felt as empty as the soda bottle on my shelf that was yours at a show you came to The biggest one of last year we stayed too late, you had a seizure then I found my biggest fear and the next day was the first time I told you I loved you cuz I realized how sad I’d be If you were gone And I wonder if you remember as clearly as I do But in case you don’t well here’s this song So I’ll watch your cam show like Netflix Sorry if this seems obsessive but I made space for you in my heart before you tore it all apart I hope you’re happy down in Oakland That’s a lie I’m only joking I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine The last time that we said goodbye You kissed me on the cheek before You stepped onto the train And I won’t forget as long as I live That moment will live on forever Playing in my brain Like so many other moments So many firsts and so many lasts I can relive them as often as I like But they’ll still be in the past Like the first time we kissed And the first time we fucked And the first time you said You loved me too Like the first time we fought which turned out to be the last Cuz I guess that’s all I Meant to you So I’ll watch your cam show like Netflix Sorry if this seems obsessive but I made space for you in my heart before you tore it all apart I hope you’re happy down in Oakland That’s a lie I’m only joking I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine

I can’t seem to sleep at night Ever since you went away I just can’t turn my mind off Just can’t seem to ignore the pain Feels like I’m swimming in static And I can’t change the channel It hurts to see you happy How could you move on so damn fast Feel like I’m stuck in limbo But I know that this rut won’t last I know that I’ll be ok And I guess that’s half the battle Just let the white noise Wash over my mind I’ll keep on moving forward One step at a time And the next time that I see you I won’t feel anything at all Some days it’s not so easy Some days I cry to all my friends How could you leave so quickly I had no chance to make amends But I don’t think I could have This probably was a long time coming It’s not like you were perfect I didn’t expect you to be Thought we had that in common But that wasn’t the truth I see Hindsight is 20/20 You’ve got a history of running Just let the white noise Wash over my mind I’ll keep on moving forward One step at a time And the next time that I see you I won’t feel anything at all Oh oh We both saw what we wanted to see Oh oh I saw the best in you, you saw the worst in me Oh oh We both saw what we wanted to see Oh oh I saw the best in you I saw the best in you I was so scared you’d leave me I thought I’d break and never heal Should give myself more credit I was so sure of how I’d feel But now you’ve gone away and I’m so far from the bottom I’m giving this some distance Trying to give myself a little space Think it’ll help me move on Help me to not get stuck in place But don’t you for one second Think that I’ve forgotten Just let the white noise Wash over my mind I’ll keep on moving forward One step at a time And the next time that I see you I won’t feel anything at all

You’re an addiction I’m still struggling to recover from Your love was the sweetest drug That I've ever tried I still get cravings For the way you used to touch me babe The sweetness followed by the pain And when I close my eyes I can see you Above me Like when I begged you To hurt me But not like this You fucking monster Bite me then give me a kiss Rip my heart out through my lips I’ll bleed out I don’t care I’m going crazy This withdrawal is wrecking my mind and I keep expecting to find you But you’re just not there And when I see you Above me Like when I begged you To hurt me But not like this Yes I'm an addict Clean since just three weeks ago Easier every day, you know Except for when it’s not I’m fucking crying But I’ll fill my head with better things I’ll write some better songs to sing Than the ones I forgot And when I see you Above me Like when I asked if You loved me And when I see you Like when I begged you To hurt me But not like this

You made me feel so beautiful and when you left I thought you’d take that beauty with you leave me broken and distraught but I’ve realized, though imperfect, I’m not worthless after all So I just want to say thank you Now I’m hanging up this call Goodbye, my darling, I hope you find Someone to give you peace of mind Wish I could say I don’t regret A minute of the time I spent With you my head was in a whirl But I learned how to be my own girl And I’ll always love you, I’m sure you know But I can make it on my own You said I was your everything Then made me feel like nothing Built me up and let me down Told me sweet things but you were bluffing Now I feel used and lied to I was the one you cried to Now I’m alone and crying I hope you’re satisfied too Goodbye, my darling, I hope you find Someone to give you peace of mind Wish I could say I don’t regret A minute of the time I spent With you my head was in a whirl But I learned how to be my own girl And I’ll always love you, I’m sure you know But I can make it on my own I guess this is the last song I’ll write for or about you The first one made you happy Like it was supposed to And I don’t know how this will make you feel And I’m not really sure I care Cuz I wrote this song for me This kid’s no longer scared Goodbye, my darling, I hope you find Someone to give you peace of mind Wish I could say I don’t regret A minute of the time I spent With you my head was in a whirl But I learned how to be my own girl And I’ll always love you, I’m sure you know But I can make it on my own