This song’s about a crazy girl
Who cries herself to sleep at night
Cuz she hates her body
Hates her mind
And wants to die most of the time

She has so many lovely friends
Who'd be sad if her life would end
So soon
So far before its time

So I'll stay alive for them
Cuz that crazy crying trans grrl
Is who I really am
I'm not pretty I'm not happy
My life's a fucking joke
You are the only one that can give me the happiness I crave
You are the only thing that gives me hope

So I'll get a bunch of hormone pills
And take a million at once
Die in a blaze of estrogen
as my liver combusts from all

The dreams I fear I'll never see
Become blissful reality
I need this
I need this more than words can say

So I'll stay alive for them
Cuz that crazy crying trans grrl
Is who I really am
I'm not pretty I'm not happy
My life's a fucking joke
You are the only one that can give me the happiness I crave
You are the only thing that gives me hope

And so I'll stay alive for the girl
I know that I can be
She deserves a chance
To see this world
Even though all I see right now

Is hopelessness and a way out
But even when I'm having doubts
I know the sun will always rise
And I'll be here smiling so wide
That my face might break and I'll realize
How gorgeous this world could be
If I let myself believe

So I'll stay alive for them
Cuz that crazy crying trans grrl
Is who I really am
I'm not pretty I'm not happy
My life's a fucking joke

You are the only one that can give me the happiness I crave
You are the only one that can give me the happiness I crave
You are the only one that can give me the happiness I crave
You are the only thing that gives me hope