The last time you were in my room
You spent hours on my bed
on the phone with someone else

And I told you that I wasn’t jealous at all
but I felt as empty as
the soda bottle on my shelf

that was yours at a show you came to
The biggest one of last year
we stayed too late, you had a seizure
then I found my biggest fear

and the next day was the first time
I told you I loved you
cuz I realized how sad I’d be
If you were gone

And I wonder if you remember
as clearly as I do
But in case you don’t
well here’s this song

So I’ll watch your cam show like Netflix
Sorry if this seems obsessive
but I made space for you in my heart
before you tore it all apart

I hope you’re happy down in Oakland
That’s a lie I’m only joking
I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine
I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine

The last time that we said goodbye
You kissed me on the cheek before
You stepped onto the train

And I won’t forget as long as I live
That moment will live on forever
Playing in my brain

Like so many other moments
So many firsts and so many lasts
I can relive them as often as I like
But they’ll still be in the past

Like the first time we kissed
And the first time we fucked
And the first time you said
You loved me too

Like the first time we fought
which turned out to be the last
Cuz I guess that’s all I
Meant to you

So I’ll watch your cam show like Netflix
Sorry if this seems obsessive
but I made space for you in my heart
before you tore it all apart

I hope you’re happy down in Oakland
That’s a lie I’m only joking
I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine
I hope your heart is fucking broken just like mine